Jodoh

Assalamualaikum

Hi all.

Umur aku 28 this year and in about 13 days more I'll be really 28. Like, next year 29 and next next year 30. Whattttt..

Dan aku tahu di masa umur begini semua orang dah berada dalam next phase of their life. Phase with life partner and their junior one. Being pregnant and deliver babies. Like your own babyy, how cool is that!

I am also fully understand that marriage is a long commitment and not only for sweet stuff. Sometimes the ups and down in marriage life, is the new thing that someone at my age experience already.

I read and see mostly my friend are all building their own small family like building your own little empire and that was awesome.

So, I know I should be on track by now. My friend that once share same relationship problem with me, 3 years back are already someone's wife by now. But here I am. I have no one. I have no visual image of life partner. I see no one.

Should I just go and gamble for anyone just because I want to be fit in a road that everyone's else taken?

Sometimes I scroll my friends list in facebook, if I could find someone that I feel attracted to, that maybe I can woo the guy. But I couldn't find one. Deep down, I long for someone but I know I can never have him. I've had the chance but I blew it. Through out the years, I am still thinking about him but I know he is not for me. What can I do?

I want to be in the road. I really do! But I really do not see myself being there. I know I'll be talk of the town. You know, anak dara tua.

But if he, the one is still not showing himself to me. What can i do? I am a believer. I believe all this years, Allah heard my prayer. He always does. Just, it's still not time. The only thing that last for me to do is be patient and keep striving for my life.

Maybe for now, I am not rizk to get as everyone else, a life partner. But I know soon Allah will send one to me.

So to my jodoh, all this time I am really angry with you because of you didn't come by the time I thought you would come. While searching for you I have experience tonnes of heartbreaks till I was down hard.

But now I realize, Its not you who did wrong but I was the one who were full of myself.

I know you were out there still looking for me. I pray that we meet each other.

 I've been looking forward to many great adventures with you. Please recognize me when you meet me because we shouldn't waste anymore time haha.

Till meet you,
Your other half.